Houndstooth Peplum Top: Dorothy Perkins
Striped Bodycon Skirt / Silver Earrings: Forever 21 Plus
Black Sandals: SM Parisian Plus
Red Orange Flap Bag: Charles and Keith
One small step for fashion, one giant leap for this belated bloomer.
This ensemble is an accomplishment. I'm a former exclusively pants-only kind of girl, where wearing sleeveless tops made me super conscious and shorts just downright terrified me. I couldn't even fall in line with other girls in dressing rooms without having to look down at my feet, fiddle with clothes in my basket or bring out my phone to distract me, because I was so afraid to look other women in the eye and find judgement. Even though it was all I knew as one of the biggest girls in school from when I was ten until I graduated, it stung every single time.
Wearing a fitted sleeveless, peplum top in a houndstooth print, pairing it with a body-con striped skirt and finishing the whole thing off with heels is kind of a big deal to me. (The aviator shades are just to add pizzazz.) I'm still in a state of disbelief when I see photos like these. Having the attitude and confidence to pull if off is a far cry from the fat girl who was picked to join a group dance presentation in school, because her teacher spotted her at the back of a Physical Education class, surprisingly agile and quick to learn the steps. She secretly, desperately wanted to dance, show everyone that she could move like all the other lithe girls half her size and prove their assumptions wrong, but instead, she pretended not to be interested (breaking her heart in the process) because they all had to wear denim shorts and she didn't know if she could find one that would fit, or if she had the guts to wear it out on stage if she did.
I couldn't be prouder of how far I've come.
If you find your self-esteem in a deflated state, keep in mind that your size doesn't define you. Your weight doesn't give people the right to label you or box you in with limits. Your shape doesn't make you less important of a person. Character, intelligence, talent, potential - these exponentially more important things can never be measured by size.
PS: Do some types of clothes still terrify you? What triggers your fashion anxiety? I think sharing these thoughts, issues and experiences help in sorting out our baggage and helping us move forward, so type away below. :)
The Belated Bloomer